Speechless, which is a good thing for me

Ok, did you all hear about that lady in CA who just had the 8 babies?? Everyone was excited for her and what a cool story yadda yadda because there's only one other set of living octuplets. UNTIL you find out she already has 6 other kids, she's single AND she lives with her parents. That makes 14 kids UNDER the age of 8. WOW. Is having 6 kids not enough when you are single?? To top that, she had fertility treatments in order to get pregnant again. Ok, anyone with common sense knows the chances of multiples with fertility treatments is high. Not only that, but she also has a set of twins. AND they told her she was having multiples and gave her the option of reducing the number of embryos. Without starting a major war, that is a persons personal choice and reducing embryos is either seen as killing your children or seen as not because they are not considered human yet. Me personally, I wouldn't do it, but wouldn't rag on someone who did. I also wouldn't have had fertility treatments after already having SIX kids!!!! And did I mention she was single???Sorry. That story is crazy. Who is paying for all those kids?? I hope her parents are well off, especially considering in an interview, her father mentioned "that media may have a tougher time finding the family after the babies are released from the hospital. 'We have a huge house, not here," said the man, who would only identify himself as Ed. "You are never going to know where it is.'" How nice for them. I'm sure the state will ultimately know because they will probably end up paying for all of those 14 kids when mom can't get a job because she's trying to raise the kids, all (however many there are) dads of said 14 kids are MIA and grandma and grandpa retire and run out of money. Yeah. I think he knew things were going to start going negative and judgmental when he made that comment.

Now saying what I just said there at the end brings me to why being speechless for me is probably a good thing. I tend to jump the gun on things, speak before I think, and open mouth, insert foot. Or any other cliche you can think of for talking when I probably have no room to. I posted yesterday about my irritations with the barn owner. Even though I was really just venting, I was venting before I found out the real info. So as it goes, we did finally see the barn owner and he did get sawdust. But only 1/2 a load which, with the way people DON'T pick their stalls and only strip them every time, will probably last a week max. We asked what was going on and he said they have the wood at the mill, but there are no orders. All of the businesses are down and have no orders because no one's building stuff and using the wood. So if no one's using the wood, it sits and there are no shavings or sawdust. He said they were going to try charging $1600 PER load. That's outrageous. He's been trying to call around, but apparently there just aren't that many places. I don't know what's going to happen. I hope to god he doesn't raise our board though. That will be hard as things are stretched as it is. I know it wouldn't be his fault though. I'm just glad we aren't at our prior barn. She ran out of sawdust CONSTANTLY because of her bad credit with them. I can only imagine how it is now unless she tells people they have to provide their own. And even then she's probably stealing theirs like she did everything else.

I digress. So once again, I talked before I asked questions. How do you control yourselves? lol Is there a course I can take for that?? I think I need to slow things down. Sometimes it's hard because emotions take over, I suppose. I am emotional in that way, that I jump to conclusions quick without finding out the true story. I would be a horrible reporter, except maybe for the Enquirer or something. What kind of person are you? Do you just explode or do you quietly think about things? For me, if something irks me, I will quietly stew about it and either explode if provoked, or more usually I just stew and let slide. Like with my husband. He's a talker. I'm not. I don't bottle stuff up or anything, things just don't bother me like they do him. And he hates it. He says stuff SHOULD bother me like it does him. I think we just deal with it different. With that being said, as I was just talking on the phone to one of our vendors, I realized that I act totally different if it doesn't affect me personally. With the BO, I was all huffy (in my head, not out loud) and was imagining everything was against ME, etc. But with making this call to the vendor for a supposed overdue bill, I didn't automatically assume they were trying to screw my work over. I just wondered what happened, so I called and nicely asked. Guess what? It was a system glitch, so no problem. I didn't have to get all wicked and mean ;) Why can't I do that with myself? Someday. I guess that will have to be a personal goal of mine. Stop and count to ten and maybe things will clear up.